Buying My Dream Land Without A Job

Yesterday our agent told us our offer has been accepted.

We are buying a house with 4 acres of land while neither of us has a job.

But let’s back up a bit.

My boyfriend, Ray, and I quit our jobs in 2021. We made a lot of money in crypto and dreamt of building a giant community.

At the time, it was a cry against societal norms. We broke free from the system.

Fuck the system, we said. We need to get others out.

But then we lost all of our money. So back into the system we went, with tails between our legs.

We picked up jobs online. We started our own company. We traded responsibly.

But that wasn’t what led us to where we are today. And this newsletter isn’t one about hustling harder until the day your dream comes true.

What led us to where we are is the commitment we made to following our excitement.

I know that sounds woo af, so let me break it down.

Losing all of our money taught us one important lesson:

We do not have free will over our actions. How we act, dream, and think is controlled by our relationship with money.

And when we studied it closely, and I mean really closely by turning it into a daily practice for the last 2 years:

• journaling

• meditating

• studying spiritual teachers that resonate with us

We found the common thread:

We have never let ourselves act based on what truly excites us. We force ourselves to be excited by things we know will bring money or security.

And if that was the driving force behind our actions, no wonder we kept creating lives that made us miserable!

Thich Nhat Hanh says the future is made of today. If you look deeply into the present, you know exactly what the future looks like.

And if we are not doing what excites us today, why would we magically do that tomorrow?

So for us, that meant dropping the clients we were no longer excited about.

Dissolving the company we no longer wanted to build.

It meant living as frugally as possible while honoring our health and well-being.

This freed up a lot of our time— time we devoted to understanding our excitement of building a community.

What does that look like? What is required? What skills do we need? What are we trying to build? Why do we want to do it?

Day by day, we learn a bit more about what we desire.

By giving it the time and space to evolve, a blueprint was born. It’s not all that hard, and we don’t need as much money as we thought we did 3 years ago.

That shift in mindset is what drove us to this beautiful land.

This land whose mortgage would actually be half of our rent because she is so far up on the mountain you have to hold on to your seat the entire way up and try not to pee yourself.

If we had focused on making the money we needed, we would probably be in a more expensive apartment right now, still dreaming of making “enough” to buy the land of our dreams.

Our dreams are not fancy or expensive. Because we aren’t actually excited by materialistic things. That is just the veil used to hide our fear.

Is there something that excites you that you’ve been putting away behind the veil of reasoning?

Content of the week:

What a dead man taught me about being alive

Rewiring your brain— when science and Buddhism act as one

The lie society tells us about money and happiness 

There’s magic in Costco plums

What my kombucha teaches me about burn out

Don’t kid yourself, you are an artist

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